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daily gratitudes

– got a laugh because Bella put eyeliner on me some days back and I can’t tell if it’s still there or not.

– let go of nonsense temptation for Kinokuniya merchandise. Purchased The Weight of Our Sky ebook. I could have waited but I’m also happy to just have it.

– Spent time with AA, discussed her future plans. Had a lovely time at dinner together. I’m so grateful for such fine company on such short notice.

I tried doing a rundown of Cantonese cuisine. Hope I didn’t muck it up.

3yee described to AA the hak chong yu recipe she got from taxi driver uncle. Hak chong with turmeric leaves, turmeric powder, and onion and garlic. Ugh I miss that dish of hers so much. My favourite.

We had peach resin for dessert.

You know how white people do nose to tail dining like they invented it? We should also do root to resin, show them how Asians eat their plants. Or roots to shoots?

Had a fun nonsense photo shoot.

  • I want to wear that.
  • Of course you want to.
  • I actually already have a photo of myself wearing that.
  • Of course you do.

Came back just in time to yum seng the strangers getting married.

– WS and NN passed me more children’s books! So much generosity (I definitely caught a Konmari wave too).

– an uncle at the wedding dinner told me where to get really nice fish in Teluk Intan. AA dropped some Sekinchan tips, and showed me a really beautiful book she’s reading that I had eyed before.

– I’m good at plot twists! I guessed the future of TLP and got it right first try.

– J gave me some of her groceries, because I’ve bailed her out on other times. ūü•į

– Have started on a journey of making excellent spiced coffee. I can make a drink with decent layers, and it’s so easy it feels like cheating.

Now that I’ve zoomed out, I see today’s gratitude revolves around books, food, and the people (women) who make my life better.

My day somehow feels even richer as I look back, when I think of this. Huh. Didn’t think this would work so well and immediately. That’s why la, so sceptical for what? Not clever also.

2.5 mugs

Coffee spice mix notes

  • 2‚Äď3 star anise
  • 5 cinnamon sticks
  • 7-10 cardamom pods
  • 3-4 twists from black pepper shaker
  • Some cloves (5‚Äď8?)
  • 2 inch skinny dried ginger

Next round:

Boil spices first, add coffee, simmer. Reduce amount of spices but maintain overload of cinnamon.

Way too much spices. 1 inch ginger. 2 star anise. Bitterness subsides with heat. 10 mins for spices, 1 for coffee.

Learn to balance rest first, then cinnamon, then eventually work in white pepper.

For tea:

Boil the milk too, and for longer. Less water. Less ginger.

Everything but xlb at YFM.

Daph loves Ming Court. Rach loves Yoke Fook Moon. I love Foh San.

But more importantly, I love my friends; even when they’re making fun of my love languages test results. Showing our love to each other over food is familiar to me. We used to do this in college, before we knew life would leave us in such varying locations.

I unthinkingly squirted some chilli and tim jeong onto the plate. The realisation bummed me out — it’s an outsider habit I picked up from eating KL’s mediocre dim sum.

I remembered myself by breakfast the next day.

Best Millennium Malaysian Band Names Beginning with D












Ding Dong



Estranged but backwards










Eventually we remembered it’s Disagree.

Midnight road trip from Ipoh to KL.

L’arme de larmy

N: I get a fan club

N: Lainie gets an army

Y: pls make military patches of this immediately

We were meant to plan dinner, but my former colleagues changed it into a call to arms amongst themselves to form Lainie’s Army¬†‚ÄĒ¬†Larmy.

I flatly rejected it then because it made me feel awkward and weird. But then some other friends declared they were joining it too and I guess now it’s a thing and I’ve had time to adjust and now I have an army.

I already see how this could come in useful. We were talking about a sexist man and

P: Throw his carcass to the Larmy

Seven recruits today, seven million in a few tweets.

Ordinarily, I go to the woods alone, with not a single
friend, for they are all smilers and talkers and therefore
I don’t really want to be witnessed talking to the catbirds
or hugging the old black oak tree. I have my way of
praying, as you no doubt have yours.
Besides, when I am alone I can become invisible. I can sit
on the top of a dune as motionless as an uprise of weeds,
until the foxes run by unconcerned. I can hear the almost
unhearable sound of the roses singing.
If you have ever gone to the woods with me, I must love
you very much.

‚ÄĒ Mary Oliver
How I go to the woods

I am so amazed to find myself kissing you
with such abandon,
filling myself with our kisses
astounding hunger for edges of lips and tongue.
Returning to feast again and again,
our bellies never overfilling from this banquet.
Returning in surprise,
in remembering,
in rediscovering,
such play of flavors of gliding lips
and forests of pressures and spaces.
The spaces between the branches
as delicious as finding the grove of lilies of the valley
blossoming just outside my door under the ancient oak.
‚ÄúI’ve never held anyone this long,‚ÄĚ you said,
the second time you entered my kitchen.
I am the feast this kitchen was blessed to prepare
waiting for you to enter open mouthed in awe
in the mystery we’ve been given,
our holy feast.


‚ÄĒ Feasting
by Elizabeth W Garber


Handling my friend’s Zoloft pills

  • Me: This looks deleeecious
  • Friend: *grabs* No no no no this won’t get you high
  • Me: Areyusure howyuno
  • Friend: Yes.
  • Me: GDI.
  • Friend: It’s my Xanax pills you want
  • Me: ūüėÄ
  • Friend: Also no.
  • Me: ūüėĒ

I mean, it’s unethical to rob friends of their medication, right?

Sakit itu sementara

‚ÄúSakit itu sementara‚ÄĚ

‚Ķunless you’re watching Adiwira Ku. So. ¬†I made some new friends in the cinema today. I’ll explain.

I had convinced my friends to watch a¬†local movie,¬†Adiwira Ku.¬†I had good reason to look forward to this ‚ÄĒ I am¬†interested in the topic, and¬†the¬†response online has been generally¬†supportive.

Unfortunately, Adiwira Ku did not live up to expectations; and mind you, I would have been¬†happy to accept even a mediocre film. That’s how much I wanted to see a¬†film on the topic.

Adiwira Ku is based on a true story of a Teach For Malaysia volunteer, Cheryl Ann Fernando, and her experience leading the troubled students of rural school SMK Pinang Tunggal to a victory in the state-level choral speaking competition. I have very nostalgic memories of my competitive choral speaking days in school, and I was so onboard when I discovered there would be a local film on the subject.

First off, the good: Adiwira Ku‘s casting of¬†students in the film is¬†spot-on. Whoever did the casting work on the show should get a pat on the back. Many of the¬†actors playing the young students are¬†convincing, charismatic, and the strength of the film. I could feel like I was back in school again ‚ÄĒ not only that, I felt like I was back in a co-ed school, and I have no idea what that’s actually like. The youthful insecurities, the uncontrollable bursts of angst, the¬†power relationship between each other and with teachers, those elements draw me back to¬†my teenage years. If you need a reason to watch the film (besides “support your local film industry!”), this is it. Support the young performers.

[ And if you’re going to watch the film, you should read the rest after you’ve watched the film. Warning, spoilers ahead. And bitterness.¬†]

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